This is a really hard post to write.
It’s hard to admit to you (the Twelve-in-Twelve readers) that I have been struggling with weight loss. Despite my goal to live a “healthy active lifestyle”. Despite training for my upcoming races. Despite my attempts to make healthy food choices.
It just isn’t working.
And when I started to look at all of the contributing factors…. one reoccurring problem kept surfacing:
I have a typical morning ritual…
1. Start coffee.
2. Use bathroom.
3. Get on scale.
4. Take shower, get ready.
Every morning. “Get on scale.”
And getting on the scale has become a lose-lose and a major factor in my struggles with healthy eating. Here’s what I mean….
If the scale goes up, the first place my mind goes is, “Great job, fatty. You’ve blown it. You might as well give up and eat whatever you want.” Sometimes I listen, and sometimes I don’t. But even if I try to make healthy choices, the fact that the scale went up and that nagging voice in my mind continues for the day.
If the scale goes down or stays the same, the first place my mind goes is, “Awesome job, rockstar! You’ve been working so hard, you totally deserve to take a day and eat whatever you want! You’ve earned it.” Sometimes I listen and sometimes I don’t. But even if I try to make healthy choices, the fact the scale went down or stayed the same and that nagging voice in my mind continues for the day.
Do you see where I’m going with this?
Either way, I lose. Whether it’s a positive or negative reaction to my weight, my mind STILL tries to fight me about making healthy choices. It’s like a war-zone in my mind.
So I’m giving it up.
I’m not going to weigh in.
You would be correct in saying, “Well, Ann…. How are you going to stay on track and make sure you lose weight?”
I’m going to journal. I’m going to track calories in/calories out. Remember, I had that fancy test done last year to get my true Basal Medabolic Rate (i.e. resting calorie burn)? I can do the math. I can track the calories.
So Jay and I made a deal:
I go 30 days without weighing in, but only if I journal my calories in/calories out for 30 days.
And if I’ve created caloric deficits for those days and my weight has stayed the same… then it’s time to look at something else (what I’m eating, when I’m eating, sugar, fiber, carbs, etc.)
But for now? I’m going to give it a try.
I mean, what have I got to lose? Well…. other than the weight. Hahahaha.
Tell me – do you take your own daily weight? If so, does it help you? If not, what are some other metrics you use to measure “success”?